I can't take another step forward

I don't know how I should feel. If I see another man loving you, exchanging words of love, and taking you away from me. Or what would be worse, seeing you embrace him to yourself. It's crushing me from the inside, and I can't tell you that because I love you so. Is it a breach of trust if I walk into a forbidden room that I thought was paradise, but in the end was just in ruins?

I don't deserve this.