I never thought I'd be doing the same damage I sought to avoid doing to you.

Miraculously, subconsciously I did it.

Where one would not think it was morally a wrong thing to have done, 

it was still insensitive of me.

How could I have let myself astray from what is in front of me?

The moment I look away is the moment I lose track of you,

I have to regain what I have lost, I will come back to you.

And for myself, I need to stop being such a clumsy dope and think before I leap.

It's a long way down and you don't want to hurt anyone you love while you fall.

I don't want to leave any more scars on you any more than I want to be hurt as well,

no matter who is at fault.

I look at the mirror sometimes and wonder how could I have made it so far.

I'm glad you're always there to pull me back up, 

bearing all the hurt that I've brought to you.

Damage done unto others can never be healed by simple roses and words.

I will improve, no matter how slow I am.

Stay. I'll prove my worth this time.

Ridden with guilt she was unable to sleep. All night she had been wondering why he would not forgive her. As beads of tears rolled down her cheeks, she could only watch as he continued to slave away on his computer. With every click she hears her heart grows heavy. The cold night was taking more and more of her love for him away. For the life of her she would not understand why he would be such a cold hearted monster. As the seconds pass she could only wish that he would come up, embrace her and tell her everything would be alright.

Time passes, and then it goes by, her eyes get heavy and her heart got heavier. She closed her eyes and wished that she could vanish from this world. She hoped she had the will to speak to him, but she was afraid, afraid to be more of a burden to him.  She could not bear having to lose him.

After what had seemed to be an eternity of a waiting game, she finally got up. Without a word, she went and sat beside him. She just wanted to be by his side, even if it killed her. It didn't take long before she would have her heart sink to the bottom of the ocean again. Within minutes he stood up, not saying a word. He turned and went off to the bed.

She was devastated. He didn’t even take a look at her before he left her there. Sitting curled up in her chair, she sobbed softly. She spent the remaining hours of the night wondering if it was much better if she had just agreed that Twilight was an awful movie. 

I feel like I'm losing control of the situation. I'm green eyed with rage. I'm angry that it deserves more attention than me. I'm angry that it acts like it owns you, taking all your time away from me. A fire burns deep within me so hot that I can't sleep at night. In my mind I've already thought up to about a billion ways I would kill it, and disembowel it, and eradicate it from the existence of this realm.

Alas, I'm powerless to even approach it. It takes so many forms I can't seem to ever find it. I have no leverage in anything I do now.

It has no mercy, no moral obligation to stop, it's only mission is to tear me down emotionally, and give me doubts.

I lose. Damn you heart.

It's been a while since I wrote up something on my blog, I figured out I'd clean up my Galaxy Note.

I know I should update more often, but time is of the essence, and I've got more stuff to do D:

10 more days. I'm looking forward to seeing you again <3

This will work.

Hang in there, I will come get you.

Special mail order from my baby to my heart *dies from love overdose* 

It's like christmas came early and Santa Claus was Chuck Norris.

The box

More after the jump

Made a short little video for my sweetheart Siew Kian(Qian Qian)

I miss her, so does her little bunnies.

More about the video after the jump

I'm a simple-minded person. All I need is food, and love.

You made food for me, you gave me all the love you had.

I feel like I could do anything for you. 

Forever means nothing if I'm not with you.

You're everything I need and more.

I love you.

Best dinner in the world. 

I'm high on your love. I yearn for your touch.

I want to be by your side, every minute of the day.

I must be mad because I can't stop thinking of you.

A part of you has grown in me, and, so you see,

 it’s you and me, forever, and never apart;

 maybe in distance but never in heart.

If I had never met you. I wouldn't like you. 

If I had never liked you, I would have never loved you. 

If I had never loved you, I'd never miss you. 

But I did, I do, and I will.

Words cannot explain how I feel right about now. So I'll just let these amusing cartoons talk for me. It's for you baby, you know I'm talking about you <3