I never thought I'd be doing the same damage I sought to avoid doing to you.

Miraculously, subconsciously I did it.

Where one would not think it was morally a wrong thing to have done, 

it was still insensitive of me.

How could I have let myself astray from what is in front of me?

The moment I look away is the moment I lose track of you,

I have to regain what I have lost, I will come back to you.

And for myself, I need to stop being such a clumsy dope and think before I leap.

It's a long way down and you don't want to hurt anyone you love while you fall.

I don't want to leave any more scars on you any more than I want to be hurt as well,

no matter who is at fault.

I look at the mirror sometimes and wonder how could I have made it so far.

I'm glad you're always there to pull me back up, 

bearing all the hurt that I've brought to you.

Damage done unto others can never be healed by simple roses and words.

I will improve, no matter how slow I am.

Stay. I'll prove my worth this time.

As a recluse I always almost never go out shopping, only emerging when I need to fill my gullet or when my undies start to smell like rotting flesh. The latter isn't true, of course. And since I seldom go out, I hadn't got wind of any sale spree from any retailers. Maybe it's because I'm hiding under the blanket every time the mailman

To be fair, I do all my shopping online, and whatever I can't find online I will unwillingly drag my butt to the shopping complexes and supermarkets, because, you can't really pick fresh fruits from an online store, and I get to judge fruits based on how much they've been molested over the course of a day.

In comes Save22, a website that offers an option for you to check out latest offers, promotions and discounts that are offered by retailers in areas near you, or wherever you want.

Originating from Singapore, previously known as the "Lobang Club" in 2010, it's had great success in Singapore and has now spread to Philippines and now Malaysia.

There is also an app on IOS and Android that currently only works in Singapore, as they only read out in Singapore dollars, but I do hope the app actually transitions into Malaysia soon.

While I really like the app, apparently retailers don't really like the ideas of users running around the store scanning bar codes and broadcasting prices of their shop items online. One CEO in particular stated that he believed that a shopper's retail experience is not about the lowest price alone.

So what was offered instead was a digitized promotions and catalogs that are normally found in-store, and make them searchable and location-aware online.

Whilst there are price comparison sites out there, I have yet seen one that collaborates with retailers to bring you their promotion catalogs online.

Even as of this writing I can see that there is a Warehouse End Season sale going on at Sunway Pyramid now. 

So go ahead and plan your shopping spree today with Save22!

ビビ、お元気ですか。あなたに会えなかった本当にさびしいです。アメリカはさむかったのでジャケットをきたほうがいいですよ。アメリカの食べ物はおいしいならえんりょなくてべてください。帰ったらいっしょにうんどうしよう？

今私は毎週二回～三回運動しています。ビビに愛させてように運動しています。今月ビビのお誕生日のプレセントも９０％買いました。時々プレセント高いですが、かいます。ビビは「あなたに愛しているので,　いくらたかいでもビビにあげます」と言いましたね。私もそう思います。

先週アメリカへ行くの切符をしらべました。５０００リンギットぐらいかかるので、買えません。
そのお金、ビビのプレセントを買ったほうがいいですね。もしお金もちだったら、いくらたかいもいきます。あああ、行きたいな。。。

今週の週末はシンガポールへいくとおもっています。たぶん自分でいきます。クマシイをもっていきます。ビビの香りを欠場していますな。毎晩ビビは私の夢に会いしているので、起きたくない。

ビビの写真がほしいので、もしよかったら。。メールしていただけないでしょうか。　;-(

アメリカ人のハンサムな男の人がいるかもしれないですから、しんぱいしてる。。。うわああ

どうぞおげんきで。。。

モー

I had the liberty to be invited to WeChat's exclusive party 2013 at Neverland, right behind the Butter Factory at Jalan Kia Peng.

Upon entering, I had the opportunity to have a glass of water drop 3 feet from my feet. I guess that was punishment for wearing flip flops to a club. I actually thought it was a showcase thing.

Huge signs reminding you who paid for the party.

There's a giant camera app that prints polaroid-sized images for free at the cost having your mugshot taken and posted on their Facebook Page.

There was a small line forming behind me but that was because they thought I was lining up to have a picture taken. 

Center stage and walkway.

Dj Booth area. Is that a Mac?

I didn't remember seeing anyone using the pool table till later. I'll explain more later.

Shameless camwhoring in the club.

Tote bags. Almost every time we get these it's just filed with pamphlets and vouchers.

At least we got a pen and a lanyard.

Everyone just chillin' to the music while we waited for food to be served.

The animation for the background was funny. The silhouettes were already cheering and moving, but it looked like someone was rocking the silhouettes around just to make more movements.

Trying to join the group chat via QR. 

Earlier they said they'd randomly choose a winner from whoever joined the group chat. Later this was changed to another convention.

Cupcakes with the WeChat icon, non edible. We learnt this the hard way.

First time I ever had buffet in a club. Awesome.

The queue was long.

VP of Tencent, Poshu Yeung came on stage for a bit to rant about how we surprised him because we're not dancing around. I wasn't told it was a dance, I thought it was a socializing thing.

 

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Kinda ran out of things to say at this point. Thanks for the party, I guess.

Ridden with guilt she was unable to sleep. All night she had been wondering why he would not forgive her. As beads of tears rolled down her cheeks, she could only watch as he continued to slave away on his computer. With every click she hears her heart grows heavy. The cold night was taking more and more of her love for him away. For the life of her she would not understand why he would be such a cold hearted monster. As the seconds pass she could only wish that he would come up, embrace her and tell her everything would be alright.

Time passes, and then it goes by, her eyes get heavy and her heart got heavier. She closed her eyes and wished that she could vanish from this world. She hoped she had the will to speak to him, but she was afraid, afraid to be more of a burden to him.  She could not bear having to lose him.

After what had seemed to be an eternity of a waiting game, she finally got up. Without a word, she went and sat beside him. She just wanted to be by his side, even if it killed her. It didn't take long before she would have her heart sink to the bottom of the ocean again. Within minutes he stood up, not saying a word. He turned and went off to the bed.

She was devastated. He didn’t even take a look at her before he left her there. Sitting curled up in her chair, she sobbed softly. She spent the remaining hours of the night wondering if it was much better if she had just agreed that Twilight was an awful movie. 

Batam. Never understood why Singaporeans go there. 

So when my mom asked if I wanted to tag along for a site inspection there I jumped on the bandwagon and experienced first hand how it felt to be completely clueless about the place. From what I gathered people in Singapore go Batam for 2 reasons, first of which they get a second wife there, or just trying to bone. Secondly, young couples who'd just got together recently go there for some cheap fun, much like going to Genting or maybe Thailand, if you stayed further north up the country.

To start off, the Harbourfront jetty wasn't too shabby a place, but it is crowded. It was a bit of a mess because we're also going with another company. Sony-something or another, I don't recall. 

After about 5-10 minutes of queuing and scuttling our way into the boat, we're well on our 1 and a half hour 's boat ride, chugging at the rate of a stabbed rat.

The transit from Singapore to Batam's port was tiring. There were no drinks and food allowed on board, seats were mostly taken up, and you can't seem to move around without a dozen or so eyeballs ogling at you. Maybe it was due to the fact that both me and mum had our glasses reversed, but that's besides the point. Qian wasn't feeling too good on the ride though. Seasick probably.

Thankfully, she found a pillow and a bolster. My shoulder and arms. Woop, win-win situation right there. Except when I was really mistaken as the company's photographer that I had to run around and take shots for that company. Meh. It was just a joke, people, get it through your heads ._.

Soon after about an hour's long bus ride with our guide, Octavia, we arrive at Holiday Inn. Reception wasn't too bad, we were greeted with a glasses of juice for everyone. I especially enjoyed the I-Think-It's-Pinapple juice that I took instead of the pink drink. 

The resort itself looks alright , at least until you get into your room. But we'll talk about that later. The room looked alright, seeing that it's a 3-star resort and all.

There was this little, no, monstrous sized stain on the living room floor that probably dried blood from the previous stay, who were probably murderers. Mystery solved guys, pack up the mystery machine and let's head home.

There's plenty of  foliage everywhere. And some spots of the resort is littered with mossy ponds. Looks alright from far, looks disgusting up close. 

The pool wasn't too crowded, and it was huge enough to accommodate everyone. The restaurant/cafe however there are just enough spots, but you'd be struggling to find a seat you desire. It's either the noisy group that's speaking in foreign languages or the smoker team.

The food is palatable, but I'd appreciate if there were more meat though.

Didn't get a chance to play in the bar or the game room. They have consoles there D:

Free to play as long as you get a drink or food in there.

There's a restaurant in Holiday Inn as well. Well, there SHOULD be one seeing that it's really out of reach from civilization.

There's this little pool and a man-made sand pit at the back of the restaurant. And it's also conveniently next to the spa center that's in the resort as well. Heard it's fantabulous, and, didn't get a chance to try it out.

That's all I have to talk about for now. It's probably been too long to remember most of the things I've done there anyway. 

I feel like I'm losing control of the situation. I'm green eyed with rage. I'm angry that it deserves more attention than me. I'm angry that it acts like it owns you, taking all your time away from me. A fire burns deep within me so hot that I can't sleep at night. In my mind I've already thought up to about a billion ways I would kill it, and disembowel it, and eradicate it from the existence of this realm.

Alas, I'm powerless to even approach it. It takes so many forms I can't seem to ever find it. I have no leverage in anything I do now.

It has no mercy, no moral obligation to stop, it's only mission is to tear me down emotionally, and give me doubts.

I lose. Damn you heart.

The Whatchuwant Campaign

Celcom is back with a fantabulous campaign. Apparently you can get freebies by just signing up for the mobile packages that you like to use on a daily day-to-day basis. I'm THIS close to shifting over to them. More about this marvellous ongoing promo.